I don't know where to begin
thanking you for the miraculous changes that have occurred within my
body since we met in early February.
I had been chronically bulimic
since I was 18 years old. I engaged in the binge-purge cycle 3-8 times
daily living with the stress, feelings of worthlessness, fear and self
disgust moving forward until my mid-twenties. At age 25 I was unable
to stop on my own and fearful of the physical and monetary cost of this
bizarre "habit". I quit my job, confessed my secret to my
family and boyfriend and checked into an eating disorders unit of a
hospital. I had hopes that this safe haven would be just the gap I needed
to make a permanent life change. I felt good when I left the facility
after my 10 day stay, and managed to abstain from the bulimic behavior
for about 4 months. After that period I fell back into the pattern.
The least amount of bingeing from that time forward was 4 times a week
with a maximum of 10 times weekly. When I wasn't eating I was thinking
about eating. My mind was always humming with food obsessive thought.
The bulimia was one of the
issues I came to get help for. I have been reading new-age, healer-related,
channel related, E.T. related, American Indian spirituality related
material since I was about 21. I had however never experienced anything
extraordinary enough to have had the positive evidence that my logical
mind needed to tie these volumes of information together into a reality
During our session I was
blasted with an intensity varying, "energy feeling" that I
instantly fell in love with. I am not sure if I couldn't move, or if
I was afraid if I moved the feeling would go away, but it was the best
"thing" I have ever felt. The energy changed many times, dramatically.
Throughout the session I was asking questions constantly. I wanted every
detail of information of what was happening and my goal was to remember
the feelings in hopes of experiencing them again. The highlight for
me was when my body started feeling like all of the molecules were growing
further and further apart and moving in a slow but large scale waving
motion. Right after this fabulous notion my body felt gigantically puffed
up like a huge balloon and there were no other physical sensations.
I -did not look at my body when this was happening, but asked you what
it "looked" like, as I was incredibly curious. You told me
that I was not in my body. I wanted to remain in that mode and not come
back into my body. In my 34 years, this was the ultimate sensation for
As my body settled back
down, and I don't mean back to "normal" settled down. There
was no "normal' feeling portion of our session. I could feel things
being pulled from my body. At times the volume of "stuff"
lifted from me felt like five pounds or so and caused me to gasp with
relief - Afterwards, you and Emmanuel and the spirit guides and whomever
else was there were changing the frequency in my body which I could
not only feel but hear as well.
I never expected anything
nearly as powerful as what I experienced that night. I feel so privileged
to have had the honor of working with you. You are indeed a gift to
all you contact.
Since I have been to see
you I am changed. I am quiet inside. When I drive my car now, sometimes
I leave the radio off and listen instead to the new quiet inner me.
It sounds different inside my body. Peaceful. Sometimes when I hastily
say something aloud, I think afterwards the feelings that "go"
with those words are not there. Where did they go? I don't care, but
they are gone. The old words aren't the right ones anymore. My bulimia
is gone as well. The thoughts of eating to throw up don't occur anymore.
I am not badgered with the abstinence cravings, my mind is no longer
flooded with thoughts of obsession. I still love to eat, and am not
dieting or avoiding the items I used to binge on. I just don't feel
the same anymore. I no longer feel the internal stresses that I assumed
were just part of me or of everyone.
I am very confident that
my spirit is shining through this body of mine much clearer that it
ever has before, and there is no stopping me now. Thank you Renée.