Thursday night I received a call from my friend, Kathy.
She asked if I was interested in attending a workshop called
Trust in Miracles. I decided to attend the workshop because
of my friendship with Kathy. She had recently experienced
a major loss. I wanted to spend time with her doing what
she wanted to do.
We arrived at the workshop early Saturday
morning. It was held in a large meeting room of a grand
old Chicago hotel. We were greeted with fresh fruit, juice
and water. While every one was getting settled, the speaker
- Renée - made her way around the room greeting
each of the 60 people gathered to hear her. When she spoke
to Kathy, she asked if they had meet before. She seemed
sure that she had either spoken with Kathy, or talked
with her, or maybe read an information sheet sent to her
by Kathy. When I introduced myself to Renée, she
asked me who "Mary Ellen or Eleanor" was. Renée
explained I was surrounded by an energy or presence and
she was picking up the name Mary Ellen or Eleanor. At
the time, I couldn't think of anyone I knew with that
Renée introduced us to Trust in
Miracles and herself. She explained what we would try
to accomplish during the day and asked for feedback from
people who had attended her workshop the previous Saturday
and Wednesday night. It was fascinating to listen to the
intensity and depth of feeling that the people responding
had regarding their experiences.
Afterward we took a brief break, then
began the first session. We were lying on the floor with
our pillows and blankets. As Renée spoke - asking
her spiritual guides and angels as will as our guides
and angels to join us - I received a mental image of a
mass of dark clouds. I attempted to clear the clouds away
in my mind with no results. I asked my spiritual guides
and angels to clear away the clouds so that the light
could shine. When we finished this session, I wasn't disappointed.
Instead I had a feeling of anticipation. Renée
announced that we would break for lunch and continue with
another session in the afternoon.
During the afternoon session, I had the
same mental image of dark clouds. As I listened to Renée's
voice and asked for assistance from my guides and angels,
I began to realize that thin rays of light were breaking
through the clouds. The image became brighter and the
light pushed away the clouds. I had a picture of myself
sweeping away doubt and negative energy. I felt a vibration
in the center of my chest - not unlike a quickly spinning
top. I was quite warm, too.
After the session, Renée asked
if anyone would like to discuss his or her experience.
Several people walked up front and told of things that
they had experienced during the session. Again Renée
asked if there was anyone else who would like to talk
of his or her experiences. Although I was profoundly affected
by what had happened, I didn't feel comfortable sharing
with the group. Once again Renée asked for volunteers
to share with the group. I felt she was speaking to me.
So I went up to the front of the room.
Renée hugged me and then, touched
my back. The spinning in my chest - the heart chakra -
increased. I felt my body temperature rise and my legs
and arms were trembling. She asked me to share my experience,
and after I did, she asked how I felt. I replied that
I felt very open and vulnerable. Renée said that
I accustomed to putting up barriers to protect myself,
which was true - I don't feel comfortable sharing my inner
thoughts and feeling with many people. I usually hold
most people at arm's length. She then gave me a hug and
said we would talk later.
At the end of the workshop a number of
people were talking with Renée. I was standing
behind her when she was speaking to my friend, Kathy.
Kathy was telling Renée of the death of her father
last year, and the death of her mother, three weeks ago.
Renée asked Kathy if she knew Sally or Bruce. She
explained that their presence was around Kathy, and that
they wanted Kathy to know her mother was not present.
Her mother was in transition, and she would be fine. Although
the names were not familiar to Kathy, they were familiar
to me. My paternal grandmother's name was Sally Blanche
Gray and my maternal grandfather's name was James Bruce
Moseley. After a conversation with my mother, I learned
that my great-grandmother's name was Mary Eleanor Stone.
Are these coincidences? I don't believe so.
Since the workshop, I have had many positive
reactions to this experience. I have let go of an uncomfortable
relationship, which had ended but had lingering feelings
of responsibility. I have had numerous opportunities to
be drawn into sticky situations with my husband, and instead
I have let the opportunities pass with no regret. And
the relationship with my younger child, who is experiencing
difficulties in school, is much calmer and loving instead
of frustrating and exasperating.
The day spent with Renée has had
a positive affect on me, which continues to develop. I
am mediating and journaling, which are practices I had
resisted. I "never" had time to mediate, and
didn't want to commit myself to paper -- the trust issue
again. When I sat down to write about my experience with
Renée the words flowed. I felt no hesitation or
reluctance to share my experience or commit it to paper.
Thank you, Renée!