I wanted to report to you, this morning after a great night's sleep.
Last night when you began lifting the energies from my adopted mother,
you began with her anger, and moved on to her fear. When you got to criticism
and blame around my relationship with her, I suddenly felt my diaphragm
free up, and my breath came easy. It was like I had never really been
breathing for the last 40 years. Intellectually, I have known that early
in my life I froze up around the negative, critical energy that pervaded
my childhood, and no amount of therapy or body work or even other energy
work had been able to touch that issue related to that essential thing,
the breath. In fact, when I would do yoga or meditation, and it would
come to breathing exercises, or pranayama, or "rest attention on
the breath" I would feel waves of sadness and grief, and despair
at even having to draw breath. That despair is gone. Even when I look
for that feeling, I can't find it. I feel as if I'm breathing like an
untraumatized newborn breathes. Uncomplicated. Talk about a miracle!
Besides feeling great this morning, I also have a physical change to
report. For the past four weeks, I've been following a medical protocol
designed to adjust my ph, which I've tested every morning. It has hovered
between 5.5 and 6.0, only once reaching 6.5. This morning it was 7.5.
Actually, I think that's too high. But I didn't change anything about
my eating habits, or any other thing I can think of. So the only factor
I can attribute this change to is the healing work you did last night.